deleting processes failed!!

sebab da gne tjuk dlm bi entri kli ni nk dalam bi gak..bukan pe..in the way to improve my english..(^_^)

ok..a few days ago he asked me to delete all my memories..not memories in my laptop or my handphone..but in my head and in my heart..all my bad memories that i had gone through before this..that was not simple..after many years i've grown up with that memories but he asked me to delete it all..i tried..but still failed..

no..it doesnt mean that i dont want to delete it..but i still cant forget it..how they said bad things of me in front of me..how my best friend joined them and made me cry..i will never forget that..she supposed to defend me..but what had she done??

but now..when sometimes i remembered about that again..no more tears..but deep inside my heart i hate them..really..eventhough a few times i missed them but i dont want to meet them again..they hurt me the most..

when i told him my story he didnt agree with me..he asked me to forget it..he asked me to start with new life with new happy memories..for me i think bad memories suit me better than happy memories..he himself also gave me more bad memories..so how can i forget the old one if he always add a new one..

i still remember the day i cried at the stairs in front of the school office..and now i still cry alone in my bed..only HE knows..and HE had gave me some strength to go through all the sadness and all the hardness..i hope that HE will always be at my side forever..

p/s: sorry for my broken english..